It scares me to think that one day, I'll have a deep, philosophical conversation with somebody about life. One to one; sharing our opinions and what it means to be alive. What do we hope to accomplish? Of course, Memento Mori means a lot to me as an atheist. There's no point in living a complicated life, because it doesn't matter. In the end, I'll die, and my whole life will amount to nothing. But that doesn't mean there's any point in living an unfulfilling life too. Of course, my thoughts on this matter are still disorganized. Having only lived a small part of my life thus far, I can't have a concrete view on the matter yet. But I have already begun forming my outlook on life.
It's almost frightening how much I've developed over the past two years. I've matured a lot, and I've been through more these past two years than I have in my whole life before. Sudden changes in my life spur radical mental developments. I'm quick to change; it's possibly one of my worst traits. I really need to get a concrete 'image' of myself; and fast. I can't say I have a solid personality. That is, I can't even begin to describe myself in any way. Sure, I know my interests, but I don't know my personality and tendencies. It's no wonder I'm boring and don't make friends easily. There just isn't significant about me at all. Could I go so far as to say I have no real substance in this world?
Sorry, this isn't an 'emo' post. I'm not feeling depressed at all. I don't even know what inspired me to start typing up this post. I'll do a proper diary post later I guess. Gotta blog about the new year and food and money!
You're not boring at all, in fact I find you most interesting. I can describe you in many ways, but one aspect of your personality that strikes me most, and I like about you most, is how caring you are. :)
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