Where did it all go wrong?

Seriously, Kevin. When did it all get so bad?
I've missed most of my lectures this year already. Pathetic. It started off as laziness but now i dont know. Maybe im afraid of going there now.
I dont live on campus. That makes everything complicated. I cant make any friends. I feel so alone whenever in at uni. That is, when i AM there. My problems are probably so trivial to the world, yet they're crushing me. I feel so weak and powerless. Im going to fail at this rate. I do care, but i feel too weak to do anything about it. Im pathetic. I dont deserve happiness when im like this. Serves me right.